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*high glass walls* the feeling of watching you walk by like i'm surrounded by walls that wont let me walk to you yet those walls are clear so i can still see out glass walls they surround me not enabling me to move you cannot hear me though i scream your name since you left the walls have acted like my shield not letting my heart be penetrated with hurt once more oh how i wish for the walls to go away and let me live my life with you but they wont i'm surrounded forever, by the high glass walls *the stars* bright glimmering masses up in the sky wish upon a star and your dream might come true dotting the vast sky being taken into your wandering eyes your heart opening up to them telling them your dreams and hopes a heart full of dreams and a sky full of wonder what can that bring? hope look up in the sky and wish upon the star and let your heart open and maybe your dreams will come true *silent dreams* longing for a place to turn to running for a place to hide calling out but no one comes no one hears my pleas my pleas for help and comfort silence is surrounding me warping my world and my dreams i need to awaken from this hell awaken from my silent world awaken from my silent dreams *silence* heartwrenching anger overtaking my life the presence of someone watching me but not hearing anything a life full of silence never being able to hear anyone terror is hell silence is purified into my mind as a long hard anguished life comes to an end i do not have to worry worry about anyones crys or sorrow for i am dying as i lived my life dying in silence *angel* i can feel your presence around me your icy touch upon my skin your warmth and love shining down upon me guarding me protecting me i know your watching me waiting for me till the day we can be together again the last thing you said was "i love you" and that will be the first thing i'll say to you when we meet again in heaven until then keep protecting me Don't worry We will be together again someday My sweet angel br> *prechromatic memories* my vision changed from black to white my surroundings around me began to fade along with my memories of you all those times we cherished were now gone gone in the void of blackness known as my heart it spiraled down into the blackness all memories i ever had along with any feelings i had for you i used to see all colors for i was happy but now..i'm gloomy and depressed in my own little world i see limited colors due to my sadness because of you those memories changed my life forever the days you touched me and whispered to me i was lost lost in the prechromatic memories *the horror* the way they dragged me around made us strip in front of each other they killed us just because of our religion just because we were jewish i remember the concentration camps watching my friends being shot and gassed the nazis picking random people to die the rest of us suffer we're prisoners of war we're beaten, starved we watched our world crumble around us our whole life dissapeared we only looked forward to dying we had no future we couldnt own land, or work we tried to escape from freedom most of us died on that journey all we wanted to do was escape wanted to escape from the torture wanted to escape from being a prisoner of war *reflections* looking in the water i keep seeing the scene its so vivid in my mind the horror why it wont go away i dont know i always see it when i look in a mirror or water whenever i see my reflection it replays in my mind over and over it was 6 years ago you came for me but i wouldn't let you take me you forced me to you took my womanhood you took a big part of my life it keeps running through my mind i cant get it out of my head but it never comes until... i look at my reflection | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||
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*tonight* please read my words and listen as my heart speaks to yours here are times of emotional peace and the end of empty wars ~~~ we're both shy yet we're both here these feelings were meant for us this passion so clear ~~~ i cant quite explain it but i know it must be right every thought i have is of you tonight *almost* i remember that day the day i almost lost you the day my heart was almost penetrated with hurt only love kept us together we were all that each other had we will always will be without you i would be lonely unloved... i almost lost my love...my best friend almost br> *because you love me* with you as my love i know that i can do anything and you will still love me how you love me for who i am i love you for being honest with me and caring for me as much as you do your the love of my life and i NEVER want to loose you if only you could feel my heartbeat how its so fast and uncontrolable over you how i would do anything just to be with you one time to see your face and feel your arms around me i would wait for all eternity for that one chance love...is like an everlasting sin with me it tortures my heart but not with you its different because you care its different because you love me >*moonlight on the lake* we slowly row the boat into the middle of the lake you hold me tight and point up to the stars you tell me how each star represents a couple you pointed to the brightest one and said it was us the moonlight on the lake is wonderful we row towards the shore we get off the boat and walk along the lake we are illuminated like a spotlight illuminated by the moonlight from the lake *why cant i stop thinking about you* everytime i close my eyes i see your smiling face my pulse begins to quicken and my heart begins to race never before have i had this feeling in my heart i cannot stand how we are apart to feel your arms around me just one time would make me happy as a dove i dont know but i think this time i'm really in love no matter what i do or what i say i cant stop thinking about you your in my thoughts,my dreams,in everything i do so near in my mind yet so far away i know that we will be together some day i want to be with you through everything i do why oh why can't i stop thinking about you?< *everlasting love* i love someone so deeply they will never know i long to hold onto him like i long for winter snow to hold onto him gazing into his beautiful eyes anything he does i will never hate or despise everytime i see him my heart earns to be close to him to feel his heart beat for me is like an everlasting sin to feel his warm hot breath breath trace my neck and feel his soft gentle kisses this is something i want, one of my wishes for us to go to the park and feed the doves this is what i want with an everlasting love *burning* i watched the blood flow off my wrists felt my warm hot tears stream down my cheeks the love i thought we had was now gone i lost you and i can feel my heart burn with pain and anger i can feel my strength drain away i see my life flash before my eyes every part of my life except the years that you were part of it even dying i dont want to think about you so much blood surrounding me i can feel myself being pulled away to somewhere i didnt want to go i want to live but i cant i cant stand the pain you brought upon my shoulders my heart is burning... my anger flares *roses* i stood there with letting the blood run down my fingers i'm gripping a rose so tightly but its thorns are grinding into my skin my red blood...like the color of the rose the rose means love but what does my blood mean why did you have to do that to me you said the rose was the last thing you were ever gonna give me you said for me to hold onto it forever i held it away from me at first then i brought it close to my heart you shattered my heart i gripped the rose tightly then and felt the blood pour the last thing i seen... was you giving me the rose the rose with its deadly thorns *shattered* from the first time i laid eyes on you i knew we were meant to be togther i knew i wanted you now and forever i took in my home and cared for you you treated me like i wasn't even there at first i thought you loved me but then i realized you didn't you came then left you walked in then out the door oh why did i trust you you stole from me but i was to blinded by love to realize that you ruined my life you used me you broke my heart into a thousand pieces it was whole once but.... now it's shattered *end* *lost* i miss hearing your soft words feel your hands caressing my shoulders i miss having you around a shoulder to cry on an ear to listen without you i'm confused and unloved depressed and lost my mind wanders thinking about the time we met when i looked into those eyes and saw the love in them a love i knew would last forever but now... were not one anymore i lost you my love i'm heartbroken and lonely my world is shattered all my hopes are lost *end* *shadowy morning* the fog was rolling in casting shadows upon the earth the morning sun was blocked its rays couldnt be felt we couldnt see out the windows only each other inside the house illuminated by the candles we were using we were stuck in the house for days falling more in love minute by minute and to think this all started one shadowy morning *end* | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||
longing | i long to feel your arms around me your soft lips placed over mine and your heart beat for me as our tongues slowly entwine ~ a feeling of loneliness had taken over me till the day when i met you my heart beats so uncontrolably i dont know what to do ~ i know that you love me i wish you would tell me to and i long for you to hold me so i can say "i love you to" *please dont take me* tumbling swirling into the deep abyss An evil laughter echos off the emptiness nothing left nothing at all pure blackness surrounds me trying to take me into the nothingness i plead and beg "please dont take me" the evil laughter again only much more harsh its sound plunges into me stinging me i scream but no sound escapes my mouth lights swirl all around me now making me dizzy the laughter dies i plead in my last moments the lights fade once again blackness please...i know you can hear me "please dont take me" ONCE UPON A LONELY NIGHT.... AS I DREAMED OF A LOVE THAT WOULD CARRY ME... I LOOKED TO THE SKY TO SEE A FALLING STAR... IT FELL INTO MY ARMS TO BRIGHT... I LOOKED TO SEE THIS BEAUTIFULL ANGEL BEFORE ME... WITH TEARS FALLING FROM HER EYES... SHE KISSED ME GENTLY.... I ASKED HER .... WHAT IS THE MATTER? SHE TOLD ME SHE COULDENT LOVE EVER AGAIN... IN ONE HAND I COULD FEEL HER SOFT WINGS... AS THEY RUBBED AGAINST THE PALM OF MY HAND.... SHE TOLD ME SHE WAS BROKEN... I LOOKED TO HER EYES.... AS I HELD HER CLOSE TO MY BEATING HEART... I SAID "I LOVE YOU" SHE SMILED... SHE STOOD BEFORE ME... KISSED MY FOREHEAD LIKE THE WIND... AS SHE WHISPED AWAY IN THE LIGHT THAT SUPPORTED HER... YET IN THAT MOMENTS TIME... AS SHORT AS COULD BE I COULD STILL FEEL THE LOVE.... WITHOUT QUESTIONING.. I REACHED INTO MY POCKET..... I FOUND A LOCKET IN THE SHAPE OF A HEART.... ENGRAVED IN ITS SURFACE... "THE LOVE OF MY DREAMS......I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU...." "........LOOK TO THE STARS...... AND YOU WILL FIND ME" *childhood fantasies* watching you sit there with your eyes closed i know that you are there but your not your drunk you open your eyes and walk to the fridge you pull out a beer i take my gaze off you and look around the room i see someone else smoking a cigeratte she looks at me and starts coughing she puts the ciggerate out two minutes later she lights another one up i walk upstairs and see someone sitting on the roof lighting up a bong smoking till there stoned out of there mind i walk into a room that has furniture yet is vacant .... i walk back downstairs and see a family sitting together telling each other stories i dont see anyone drinking or anyone smoking i see people who are straight and dont do anything i see the perfect family which is... my childhood fantasy *honesty* i just wanted you to tell me the truth one time instead of always lying to me lying about where you were going and who you were going with i gave you my heart and you supposedly loved me how wrong i was to trust you before we got together i told you i always wanted you to be honest you promised me you lied you always lie i didn't ask for much i only wanted one thing i only wanted honesty *left alone* i've always wondered where you are and why you left me all my life i've been wanting to know i know you couldnt take care of me but why haven't you tried to find me? you left me on a doorstep all alone i was only but a few days old i still live in this orphanage wondering... someday maybe you'll find me until then i'm all alone *slip away* i remember the way your grip loosened around my hand the life drained out of you your eyes lost their sparkle you slipped away from me slipped out of my life i lost my grandmother i loved you... i just didnt know how to show it Wiretoe123: that day when you passed away scarred me it was one year ago i knew you were suffering but i still didnt want you to leave i watched you go from healthy to sick fat to skinny i knew you woulndnt recognize me near the end of your life but i always knew you'd be watching me as my guardian angel i watched you leave this earth i watched you slip away *suicide* i felt your hands explore me you told me it was ok and that you wouldnt hurt me you hurt me worse than i ever thought possible you took my womanhood abused me you were my uncle you should have known better for three years i was violated till i broke down i couldnt take it couldnt take the heartache the pain you inflicted upon me i took the knife, and slit down my wrists watched the blood pour onto the floor if only i wasnt abused wasnt molested raped its all your fault uncle because of you i'm dying inside and out goodbye uncle, goodbye world i'm leaving now, leaving this earth to a better a place where i wont be abused or molested maybe i'll see you someday, i hope not though Goodbye uncle goodbye world *torment* i looked at that wry smile you had on your face and listened to that cruel laugh that came from your mouth i felt your hands against me not with softness but with force everyone could see what you were doing to me except me i couldnt see the pain you were inflicting upon me the love i thought you were giving was hate the torture i lived through my heart and soul were taken granted of the torment you put me through was overwhelming i was stricken with grief but i had no idea why i thought i had done wrong i got ready to be hit, be beaten but i was taken away i was taken away from you and your abusive ways i was taken away from your torment
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